Friday, August 12, 2011

So Now What?

It's strange to think that I have accomplished my goal, what I wanted when I decided to start this blog.  I actually thought it was going to take a lot longer.  I mean, I know that 25+ years is more than enough time to think about sex with men without actually acting on it.  But when I decided to start this blog, I really thought my journey to my first encounter would take longer.

I know that my fear and indecision in the beginning were probably annoying to many of you.  But oh well, to be honest, I didn't much worry about that.

So now what?

I could turn into a total cock slut to ensure that I have something to write about on a regular basis.  I'm not necessarily against that idea.  Really.  I'm not.  LOL.  I've had a great awakening experience so far.  But I don't think that is what I truly want.  I still have issues to deal with, obviously.  This blog has been my outlet, my expression of myself as I went on this journey.  I found that at times when I'm down, frustrated, depressed, confused, this blog has helped.  It's kept me positive.  But I've kept those parts of me, the darker parts, out of this blog.  It didn't fit with my original intention, so I felt it didn't belong.
HOT AS FUCK, Like this guy!!

I love talking about sex.  I mean, I really love talking, writing, or reading about sex.  But I think it's time I try to get the full value out of this community that has welcomed me with open arms.  It's time to be more real, more me.

Many of my fellow bloggers has posted a tremendous amount of thought and insight on the subject of married bisexual and homosexual men.  It's caused me to be very introspective over the last few weeks.  I've always knew I wasn't alone.  But I had no idea how "normal" I was.  It's given me new confidence, and a willingness, to decide what I want for myself and my life.  I don't know what that is yet, but I am starting to get an idea of what it isn't.  That's what I want to write about.

Don't worry, I be sure to throw in pics of "HOT AS FUCK" men for your enjoyment!  :)  And I am certainly not abandoning my journey.

1 comment:

  1. Huh? Why do you think your blog is about what YOU want?

    What YOU need?

    What about OUR porn starved minds?

    Just kidding of course.

    Yah, I'm right there with you on how much more normal I feel. How I've embraced my dirty little secret and how much confidence I have these days since I discovered that all you other guys have similar issues.

    I certainly don't have any answers for you, but just knowing there are others out there like me, in boats like mine, makes this ocean seem a whole less lonely.