Wednesday, August 7, 2013

What I Really Want

So tell me what you want, what you really really want,
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really really really wanna zigazig ha.

Full confession, I think I always have a song running in my head.  I fraking love music.  I wish I had an ounce of musical talent, but I don't.  I imagine I can sing, and reality does very little to stop me.  As I was typing the title to this post, a Spice Girls song popped into my head.  I couldn't resist, I should say sorry for possibly getting it stuck in your head. 

I digress.

I've thought a little bit about what I really want out of life.  Specifically, in my adventures on the other side of the line.  M2M action had been absent since my regular fuck buddy went out and found a boyfriend.  But that's okay, I wish him the best.  But what do I want?  Do I want to venture out again? I've crossed the line, I know what's on the other side.  The urge to go and explore is there, but not like it was before my first time. Maybe I want to call it quits for a while and focus on more honorable notions.

I have no answers, just wanted to rant for a bit.


  1. venture out again, the urge isn't going away, just be careful and selective. You may call it quits, but is that really going to stop you? again, just be careful.

  2. Gotta disagree with Ant AMtop. If you're happy enough without crossing the line and you can be happy in your marriage, then that's really a good thing. I loved hearing your story of courage, and exploration, but don't go out and get a fuck buddy just because.

    I know there's a lot of guys out there that just can't help it. They have to have their "man time" or they'll just go crazy. If that ain't you, then don't force it!

    It's like eating ice cream when you don't really crave it, and that makes it less of a treat.

    (Do as I say, not as I do!)