Monday, January 16, 2012

Break's over. I need a blowjob!

It's been a while, in more ways than one.  Last month I wrote about how I'd taken a break from my pursuit of men.  I was no longer constantly browsing on Grindr or Growlr.  I wasn't spending my time searching out that random hookup.  Today that's still true.  I accomplished what I set out to do, so I decided to take step back and enjoy life.  It's been great!  But there's one downside; I'm in need of a nice, long, powerful blowjob like only a man can give.

Thoughts of men aren't running rampant through my mind like they once did.  I spoken before of the pendulum swing my sexuality takes between men and women.  I believed that it was frozen on the men side mostly because men was the one that I hadn't had, couldn't have.  And since I've crossed that line, the pendulum has been allowed to swing back a little ways.  I still think about having sex with men.  Maybe even daily.  But it's not keeping from being productive at work or attentive at home.

Lately, the last few days, I've been dreaming about blowjobs.  Not the kind I get at home, which are pretty good.  But the kind that I've gotten from M, or from the first guy, with just the right amount of suction and motion, that result in a mind-altering orgasm.  So here's my dilemma, do I go back out in search of the random hookup?  Or, how do I go about finding that one guy, the one buddy, that can fulfill my needs on a more regular basis?  I'd once hoped that M would be that guy, but that just didn't seem to work out.

8 comments:

  1. Personlly, I think fulfillment is only possible finding the right guy and avoiding promiscuous, anonymous sex. Finding the right guy is difficult. Finding a guy to suck you off is real easy. Hopefully that tells you something in and of itself.

    I've missed you man! I'm so happy you are back. We should talk sometime.

    Welcome back.

    Jack Scott

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    1. Difficult to say the least! It's not like I can start dating. How do you find that without going through random hookups.

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  2. "Or, how do I go about finding that one guy, the one buddy, that can fulfill my needs on a more regular basis?"

    so when should i move in? dont worry, you wont have to reciprocate.

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  3. I think if you go back to finding the Head you need in the hook up sites, you will get back in the rut. But, finding that "one buddy" is hard as well. I have found that from all of the hook ups I made, I found some of those buds. Not that I hook up with them now, but if I wanted to I could.

    Good luck.

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  4. Jay -
    Dude, it is so great to see you back! I know you've been busy, so welcome back to your blog! It seems like most guys are looking for just exactly what you are describing. It's too bad you can't all get together and work something out! I know you will find someone, Jay, you are such a cool guy. You know the saying that if you're looking too hard, you can't find it, but as soon as you stop looking, there it will be. It's hard to be patient....
    Keep your chin up - you will find that guy.

    hottie

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  5. \do guys really give better head than girls? or is that just what a gay guy thinks?, a really straight guy would not even consider having a blow job from another guy, he is so str8 that the very thought of a female sucking his cock is great and the thought of a guy doin it is the reverse. I suppose that technicaly a guy should be better at it

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  6. Im married to a woman but I have always wanted to suck a mans cock! Someone please make my dream come true!

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