Wednesday, June 29, 2011

WTF!

OK, so maybe not appropriate for my very first post, in my first public blog, but I am gonna go there anyway. What the hell?!? I finally make up my mind, get up the courage, grow balls, and decide that I am gonna do it. Despite all my fears, and my shyness, I am going to hookup with another dude. Maybe even 2 of 'em! I'd been talking with a guy, who's partnered, for a couple of weeks. He's been egging me on, saying that they'd take it easy on me, trying to get me to come over. Today, I finally decide to do it, and what happens? Oh, sorry, Soandso is not in the mood. WTF!

I was gracious, made some crack about just going home and taking care of myself. Even promised some pics. You know, because I'm a nice guy. But seriously, I was pissed.

So I decided to take advantage of my new courage and see what else was out there. I had at least two other guys, both on grindr, saying that wanted to be my first. I checked to see if they were online. One of them was, so I sent a message. Nothing. I waited a little longer, still nothing. I refresh and the guy is offline. So I look for the other, not online. Shit! I can't believe that I finally mustered some courage, and nothing.

What am I doing instead? Well, I am currently logged into Grindr, Growlr, and Scruff! LOL. I doubt anyone is gonna pop up and say the right things to get me to come over. Because, in the end, I have to feel at least a little bit comfortable with the guy. No way after a few chats with a brand new stranger is anything gonna happen. Really, what am I doing instead? I started this blog.

I've been headed down this road for years. With time, getting a little bit closer to actually doing something with another guy. Stroke, suck, lick, fuck, who knows. But I'm gonna write about it. I have another blog, one that's more like my journal. It's not public, and accessible by me. In it I write about everything that is going on in my life.

This blog will be about one thing, and one thing only. My thoughts, struggles, accomplishments, in the pursuit of a sex life with men.
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6 comments:

  1. AnonymousJune 30, 2011 at 7:57 AM

    congratulations jay on starting your blog. mind if i come along for the ride?

    wow! your first follower! i'm sure i'm just the first of many more. good luck!

    cheers!

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  2. AnonymousJune 30, 2011 at 10:14 AM

    A great start, Jay. I'll be keeping tabs!
    Celt

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  3. AnonymousJune 30, 2011 at 7:25 PM

    Hey Jay, love your blog. Hot pics and true life stories. Been married 39 yrs and bi for the past 25 years. Wife doesn't have a clue. If I had it all to do over think I would have figured out my sexuality much earlier. Tough road to travel.

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  4. JayJuly 1, 2011 at 9:04 AM

    Thanks Guys! Never would have thought I get some attention this quickly! And Anonymous, yes it's a tough road, but I am gonna do my best to enjoy it.

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  5. Thirty3 Naked LaydiesJuly 5, 2011 at 12:14 PM

    Jay,

    How strange. I'e had my blog since 1007, and literally minutes ago, I updated my "Who am I?" page by actually answering the questions, "Who am I?" and, "How did this all start?" If you get a chance, check it out at:

    http://thirty3nakedlaydies.blogspot.com/p/about-us.html

    But beyond that, I commend you (too) by finding your own voice. I never expected a single person to ever read my blog. Four years later, the traffic (and relationships developed) have been mind-boggling. Wishing you all the best and a big hug. Just be you. No one can fault you for that.

    Regards,

    Alain

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  6. JayJuly 5, 2011 at 6:22 PM

    Thank Alain,
    How funny, your blog is the only one I have come across so far that is blocked at my work! I will have to check it out when I get home.

    Jay

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